I have not worked my copy-writing job for the last two weeks. In that time, the amount of work I have completed on my manuscript has been huge. I finished writing the complete story and now, I spend these free days on editing.  As happy as I am about it, I cannot help but be plagued by feelings of guilt. That little voice inside my head screams out, "You should be working, bringing in some money." To give me a point, I am working. Writing is work in which I take seriously. However, it certainly does not pay the bills yet.
My man is truly supportive in this aspect. He has even encouraged me to forget about the day job and just concentrate on the writing. As much as I love him for that, it's been a hard concept to deal with. What I really think I need to do is change the day job.
Copy writing puts me in editor mode, which is a big deterrent to freethinking and writing. Also, after writing for others all day, it becomes hard to sit at the computer and write for oneself. Perhaps the answer is a job that does not involve writing in any way.
That way, even after a day of work, I will be inspired to jump into the various writing works I have in progress and focus my energies on them in a fresh and willing manner. I think this is the best plan of action, that or get over the guilt feelings and take full advantage of the opportunity before me.
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